We signed papers yesterday confirming the sell of our old house.

I should be feeling THRILLED beyond belief it worked out this way for us. I truly should. We are very fortunate. I know this. But, our old house was one of the few last major ties to our “3 months ago” life. Besides still being on the same soccer and baseball teams this Fall, the house was what brought us to that life to begin with.

And now it’s not ours anymore. It’s someone else’s. It’s Hans’ house. Yes, his name is Hans and he will PUMP, you UP. He’s in law enforcement too, so don’t mess with him. He might, PUMP, you up.

It was nice having the house to slowly move away from. We had two garage sales there, a lemonade stand and many drive-bys and loading sessions over the past few months to keep us feeling connected.

Now, it’s not that easy anymore. The keys were left on the kitchen counter and the garage door opener handed over.

I’m afraid of losing what we had there. I can already see it happening. Some of it is inevitable. Hello, we don’t go to school down the street anymore! We aren’t attending the Fall Festival tomorrow since we already had one of our own a couple of weeks ago. It’s ok to have differences, but I’m really starting to feel it. It’s noticeable. And I hate it.

I think I have only ever moved away from some place by moving out of town. Besides moving from one apartment to another in LA when it was just J and me, I haven’t experienced the old and the new in the same “city.” Onward and upward and out-of-sight is all I know until now.

It’s so important for us to always keep our friendships we have made over the past few years. It’s important to us. But, then you have experiences right in front of you, or in the near future that pull you away more from those people. And that’s ok. It’s to be expected. I just don’t like it.

We went to a pumpkin farm today with Hola’s preschool class. Since his school is on the same campus as Rt’s elementary school, a lot of the parents have kids who are in Kindergarten, 1st and 2nd grade. It was great to get to chat with people for more than a minute coming to and from the school. I got to know them a little better, plus got some inside track on how things work around here. It was refreshing, but it was new.

I’m just having a hard time enjoying the new and adjusting to letting go of the old. a little.

But, as I said. We sold our house. WE SOLD OUR HOUSE.

I can say, I feel a little lighter today and that’s not too bad.

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